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Saturday, June 11, 2011

Haiti

This post is over two weeks overdue.  I’m back home in the States, but I wanted to share my trip to Haiti.

The day of my official close of service, four girlfriends and I embarked on a journey to the other side of Hispaniola.  Throughout my service in the Dominican Republic, I heard legends about the “other side.”  Many people made racist comments, saying that Haitians eat cats during voodoo rituals and such.  Yet, I only knew the Haitians that came to the DR to labor in order to eek out a living for themselves and their loved ones.  They were always reserved and stayed out of trouble.

The D.R. and Haiti have a long history of conflict.  After Haiti earned its independence from the French in 1804, they sought to reunify the island under their rule until the Dominicans gained their independence in 1844.  Though the D.R. has since been occupied by Spain and then the United States (2 times), Dominicans still maintain their resentment toward the Haitians.  Part of the Peace Corps mission in the D.R. is to facilitate understanding between the Haitians and Dominicans.

Therefore, I felt in order to get a more complete picture of Hispaniola, I had to go to Haiti and see for myself how it really is.

Our friend, Stephanie, was moving there to join her American boyfriend who had been living in Port-au-Prince for a year at a microfinance NGO.  We agreed to help her move all of her stuff, including a mini semi-automatic washing machine.  So at 8 in the morning, we went to the bus station in Santo Domingo with Stephanie’s stuff and bought our tickets to Port-au-Prince.  About two hours into the journey, our bus broke down and we had to wait on the side of the road for a replacement—except the replacement already had people on it and couldn’t fit all the passengers from the previous bus.  After much negotiating and arguing (and being laughed at because we wanted a refund for this inconvenience), we got on the bus and sat on the floor for the next six hours.  At the border, we noticed a lot of chaos--water from a nearby lake seeping through the government buildings, honking trucks, people peddling snacks, phone cards and currency exchanges.  We stood in line to stamp our passports and then we were on our way.  At sunset, we crossed the border, and the bus took us to the unknown by way of a thin stretch of dirt road bordering a rising lake. 

After a 12-hour journey, we arrived in Port-au-Prince and unloaded all of Stephanie’s stuff.  Her boyfriend, David, came to meet us and all at once, we knew we were in a different world.  Boys came up to us asking if they could flag down a taxi; David responded in fluent Creole that we would all fit in his Toyota Corolla.  Not understanding the exchange, the rest of us felt muzzled and realized our second-language abilities wouldn’t serve us in this land.  I didn’t even know how to say the standard, “Hi.  How are you?”  I felt so ashamed that I couldn’t be polite and greet people.

The first day of our stay in Haiti we drove through the hills surrounding Port-au-Prince.  In the hills, over looking the city, are vast, majestic mansions.  It is unbelievable how many rich people there are in direct contrast to the poverty of the city below.  After our drive, we came to the trailhead of a path into the mountains.  We hiked thirty minutes uphill, past a few villagers, and came to a breathtaking view of a few distant Haitian communities.

Afterward, we went to a café in Petionville, a town outside of Port-au-Prince where most of the international aid agencies are based, and had some burgers and Cokes.  That evening, we went to an expat party at a ritzy apartment complex.  After speaking with some of the guests about their jobs in Haiti (journalism, prosthetic limbs organization, Salvation Army), we realized that our Peace Corps experience was significantly different.   Whereas many expats aren’t required to learn Creole because they have their own drivers and/or translators, we lived at the level of the Dominican people.  We spoke their language, we complained about the same things (there’s no luz!), we struggled like they did.  Many international aid workers live in luxurious (by Haitian standards) housing separated from the people.  We felt strange that we couldn’t speak Creole and that we were attending a classy party.

The next day we took a driving tour of Port-au-Prince.  We visited an artisan village where they specialize in metal art.  After spending a lot of time admiring the artwork and observing the artisans creating it, we drove to downtown Port-au-Prince.  We drove past the largest open area park in the Caribbean—now a tent city—and then we saw the Presidential Palace, still in shambles.  Though we’ve all seen the devastating photos of the palace, seeing it in real life was something quite different.  It was sobering and symbolic of the struggles of the Haitian people under a broken government.  The palace was an incredible site.

The city of Port-au-Prince wasn’t our concept of a city with only one tall building (maybe 10 or 15 stories?) and two- or four-lane streets, instead of an impressive metropolitan freeway.  The buildings were modest and made of concrete, just like in the DR, but there were still several collapsed buildings from the earthquake and thousands of tents.

That afternoon, we had lunch at the Oloffson Hotel, a famous wooden hotel built as a private mansion in the late 19th century.  We sampled some Haitian food and reflected on our trip of the last two days.

That evening, a Haitian friend came to visit us at David’s and Stephanie’s apartment.  He was a translator at a hospital on the Dominican-Haitian border right after the earthquake.  He had a brilliant smile, an inspiring attitude, and spoke perfect English.  We knew he and his family had been through so much, more than any of us could ever comprehend, but he was still proud of his country, his Haiti.

On the last day of my trip, a few of the girls left for Santo Domingo, while Ruth and I hung out at Stephanie’s apartment.  Since David was working, we had to fend for ourselves that afternoon.  We went out to buy food at the nearest supermarket and then we bought vegetables from the local women merchants on the street.  Most goods are bought and sold on the street by ti machan, or “little merchants,” mostly women who set up their wares outside.  None of us knew Creole so we let Ruth serve as semi-translator with her broken French.  After using hand signals and French numbers, we were able to purchase what we wanted. 

I feel so privileged that I had the chance to go to Haiti.  It has such a negative stigma—from the Dominicans’ prejudiced remarks to constant representations of catastrophe in the media.  But as my friends and I realized, Haiti is a country of SURVIVORS.  They’ve recently endured an earthquake, a hurricane, and a cholera epidemic.  But they are proud of who they are.   In the Dominican Republic, it seemed as if people are always looking to the United States; the Dominican dream is to move to the U.S.  But Haiti felt different.  They were Haitian, and they expressed that in their language, their art, and their proud posture.  They don’t have much, but they have their culture. 

Haiti moved me.  It was the perfect ending to my amazing experience on Hispaniola.

*Photos courtesy of Mary

On the bus to Haiti--without seats
Over the border in Haiti.  Obviously their roads are in disrepair.
Sunset in Haiti
The hike up a mountain.  Many of the locals carry goods on their heads.
View from a mountain top.
Mountain top
Enjoying burgers and Cokes
Hanging out at David's house
The gang on David's rooftop
One of many tent cities.  Supposedly, 800,000 people still live in tent cities, a year and a half later after the earthquake.

An artisan crafting metal

Leeann learning how to do metal art

Little girl in the window
At the metal shop
Driving through Port-au-Prince
A tap tap- public transportation in Haiti.  All the vehicles are brightly painted and usually have uplifting messages.

Ti machan
Downtown Port-au-Prince
The presidential palace still in ruins
Historic Hotel Oloffson
Packing ourselves in the car as we tour the city, carro publico style.


Wednesday, May 11, 2011

Saying Goodbye...


On Sunday, I sold all my furniture to a local family, packed up my belongings, and gave the landlord the key to my house.

Then I hugged her tightly as she was saying how she will miss me, that may God protect me, and then I just started crying.

We broke the embrace and I saw her frowning as tears trickled down her cheeks.  I waved goodbye, said, “Te quiero” and got into the car.

Doña Victoria stood on my porch and watched me go.

As I sat in the front seat, I sobbed as the driver was telling me I would see her again.  I sure hope so.
It wasn’t until the final days that I realized how the people of my community had really touched me.  My neighbors became my second family.  Everyday, I visited their house to drink café con leche, to eat lunch, and just spend time with them.  My jóvenes looked to me for guidance. 

For some time before, I had felt jaded that I couldn’t really accomplish anything.  But then the Wednesday before, the people at my center threw me a surprise goodbye party.  They said how they appreciated my service and dedication to their community, and they presented me with a plaque.  They really had noticed my efforts. 

The days before leaving, I said my final goodbyes to my host family, my group of jóvenes, and friends.  People prayed for me and wished me a good trip.  I felt so honored.

The hard part has started. I said goodbye to my community and to my life there.  Now I must say goodbye to all my close volunteer friends who have supported me these two years.  I’m trying to cherish every single moment before everything changes.

I can’t begin to verbalize how this experience has affected me, but I can say that it has changed my life.  I now have a new home in the Dominican Republic, and I have made the most amazing friends who inspire me with their courage, brilliance, and kindness.

I never thought leaving this Island could be so hard.

Mami Esperanza and me 
Mi hermanita Ambar

The street where I used to live with a host family before I moved into my own house

The picture I gave to my neighbors so I would always be "eating" with them at lunch time.

My family - Esperanza, her brother Luca and Victoria.  It was a tough day.

At my despedida (goodbye party).

They were singing to me.  So sweet.

Me with the administration of the tech center

Everyone from the tech center

Monday, April 25, 2011

The Orphanage

This past week, I did a very cliché thing—I painted bedrooms at an orphanage.

A couple weeks ago, one of my friends, Brittany, worked with the local authorities to remove a child from his home because he was being abused and not properly fed.  So she did what she had to do—she rescued him and placed him in an all-boys orphanage that is supported by donations from a church in the States.  The orphanage is hardly luxurious, but at least this child, a short nine-year-old with a brilliant smile, is safe.  He can now grow up to learn different values, that people deserve love and abuse is not normal.  And he is being fed and educated and looked after.

While Brittany was there, the administrator talked to her about painting the bedrooms.  They were painted a bleak yellow that is the standard color of all the public schools and a slime green.  So we decided to brighten the rooms with calming colors and murals about values and protecting the environment.

I had never been at an orphanage before, but I think my visit there will be one of the most memorable.  I couldn’t help but think that these boys have lost their parents to death or abandonment.  For most of us, this is not something we could ever imagine.  Most of us have families who care for us, but these boys are alone in the world.  At least they have each other.  We were amazed by their intelligence, their eagerness to participate, their quickness to answer our questions; in our normal Peace Corps lives, we have a hard time eliciting answers or motivating the youth, but these boys were sharp.  The loved the attention, and they were so sweet. 

We weren’t sure if we would finish painting the rooms, but each one of us took charge and went to work, and I am so proud of what we produced.  As another volunteer Amanda mused, we each have our own unique talents to contribute so we should have our own consulting firm, helping developing nations.  I agree.  I feel so privileged to have met so many amazing Peace Corps volunteers, so many amazing PEOPLE.

Perhaps this is a shameless plug for Peace Corps, but honestly, I’m glad I did this whole thing.   Just weeks left now, and everyday I’m nostalgic.  I’m afraid to let go of it all, to let go of this life-changing experience.

But at least I can smile and remember those great volunteers I know, those eager boys at the orphanage, those grateful patients at the medical mission, and those empowered young women at the girls summer camp.  They will be my inspiration, my motivation to continue serving others.

*I realize that these pictures aren't representative of the entire team and the effort it took to complete this project... but my internet is slooooow right now, and I'm way overdue for lunch, so I'll have to add more pics another time.

One of the bedrooms - BEFORE 
Painting values into the mangoes.  
Painting little hands!
Sarah sings to the boys.
One of the murals. 
Katie painting an important message
Painting the Peace Corps emblem
Yay, Sarah loves me!

Friday, April 8, 2011

Being Present

Being present has become more relevant to me as my days in the DR are numbered.  I can already feel the stress and pressures of American society tugging on me as I’m mired in grad school decisions, financial considerations, and questions of the future.  But I have to keep reminding myself, “Stay here.  You are here now, so relish every last moment.“

I look forward to the exciting life I have ahead of me—reconnecting with old friends and family, starting graduate studies with a new “worldly” perspective, searching for my life partner, eating good food, looking good and wearing fashionable clothes, going to museums and concerts and professional panels.

But I’m going to miss a lot here—the food, the warmth of the people, all my amazing Peace Corps friends, bachata, la pasión, Spanish all the time, the beautiful untouched beaches, smoke from a fogón, climbing mountains, horses and chickens, swimming in the ocean, making up stuff, reading and drinking tea in the afternoon, enjoying the sunset, and taking it easy everyday.  I’m not looking forward to a stressful, hectic life.

This experience has been transformative for me.  I’m more open-minded, less scared of looking foolish, used to failing then trying again, and more realistic.  I want to maintain the idealism I had when I started service, but I now know that things don’t change overnight; they don’t even change over two years, but you have to be persistent and not let anything get the best of you.  You must be strong but kind.  You must be present and appreciate what you DO have.  You must enjoy your life and breathe and laugh.  Peace Corps has indeed changed my life, and I’m so glad I did it.

I imagine I’ll be stuck between two worlds when I return to the States.  It’ll take some time getting used to the rigidity, the notion of timeliness, the over-stimulation of American culture.  I’m glad to go back, but it’ll be awkward--again.  But I’m an expert at embracing the awkward. 


Stephanie and I enjoying the beach -- while we still can.

This is real and not a postcard. 
We went to the beach on horseback.  This is Camaron, or "Shrimp."  We had to ride (slowly) for an hour through the campo and it was gorgeous.